So, yesterday I was flying high on God's energy and today I'm sinking in my situaition--asking all the typical questions like Why me? How is this going to ever get better? What did I do to deserve this? And the moment they come out of my mouth, I know they are ridiculous questions, but they come from that part of me that feels--the part that looks at things with a world's perspective and feels. I just know that God so wants to turn off that feeling button we have and crank up that faith button so that we will learn to trust what we can't see and not worry about what we can. Whoa! That's just so hard for me! And so today I spent much of the moments asking God--WHY???? And of course he speaks to me as I open His word. I just flipped open my Bible and there He was--speaking to me. ...but there is a God in Heaven who reveals mysteries. Daniel doesn't say when he'll reveal the mystery or how long it might take but he says there is a God in heaven who will. And so that will have to do for me for now...

Hope the 4th was good for all of you. The kids had a great time...